This log is coming to you LIVE as the story develops…

So uh, I was bored. One of those days where you just wake up and stay in bed. Got some pizza, updated my laptop to Windows 11 aight I'm stalling my bad

This actually starts a while back, all the way back to when I initially wrote Log 4. When I was looking for references for the titular Your Boyfriend from the visual novel "Your Boyfriend", I found out that the creator was in some hot water for - I don't even have to say it what do you think man. I was reading some reddit thread about it and someone suggested that instead of playing YB, people should check out another totally original visual novel where an obsessed guy tortures and kills you called Boyfriend to Death. I look it up and get FLASHBANGED. Once again I recognize everything.

I'm actually on Spacehey, a nostalgia-bait myspace clone for people who unironically describe themselves as "older brother-core". I hate it, but I'm on there. And every second profile had a character from this game plastered all over it. Especially Strade (god I'm actually using their names now, huh).

So I go ahead and install the game. I want to say it was out of morbid curiosity? I pride myself on how I know about all these chronically online, 2017 theatre girl tumblr-core ass games and media without fitting the stereotype of, well, a 2017 theatre girl that uses tumblr. Do I give off those vibes? I hope not. I've always been more aligned with the edgy Newgrounds internet (hotdiggedydemon, egoraptor, psychicpebbles) than the more "alternative/fandom" Tumblr internet (Rebecca Sugar, Toby Fox, Homestuck, like anyone from CalArts). But at the end of the day I'm just me, and I like what I like. So I end up having interests that come from both sides, albeit leaning more towards the former.

Anyway… I actually don't end up playing it. I guess I can be completely honest here. I felt that I wasn't really the type to play male yandere vn's and I only really bothered with YB because of Rammy. It's tough man; I definitely find them interesting but not interesting enough to actually get into them on my own. Like I need to know that I can play it and talk about it with someone else. You ever have a game like that? One you always hear about and think that you'll eventually get to playing, but then you find out your friend really enjoys it so you actually take the first step into experiencing it? Of course that probably applies more to TV shows or actual video games, not drawn torture porn meant for women…

Eh. I like the Saw movies. I like Final Destination. Every once in a while I go down a gore rabbit hole. I guess it's not the craziest thing to be into disturbed yandere vns, even if that makes me a bit fruity. I'm not really into them though. That's gay. Yeah.

Flash forward to a couple of days ago. I saw the image below and thought of Rammy so I decide to send it to em.



And here's where I fumbled. They start talking about this new vn that's coming out tomorrow starring that Strade fella I mentioned before. And then I kinda go complete poser mode ima be real. Like I KNEW where this dude came from. And I was REALLY close to playing the prequel game; I just didn't because I had no one to talk to about it. So… mid convo I go reinstall the game, play through it, rage after dying like 50 times, realize that's the point, and then make a comment that implies that I played the game before. Actually no I straight up lied and said I played the game back when I initially installed it.

Don't look at me like that. Come on. It's not as if I ONLY played this game just to impress Rammy or anything. I DID know about the game before! I WAS gonna play it!! I only needed that tiny lil push ok fine I guess I'm coping.

Rammy wasted NO TIME and started going off about how they gave my mans (well actually my biggest op, Strade) man boobs or something and how they will once again screenshare the game if I want to see it. The old me probably would've been hyped as hell. But now… well idk. Scott, my friend who used to date Rammy, actually got himself a new girlfriend (though he LITERALLY just told me that they may or may not break up, which is great), so it isn't as awkward. And it's not as if I have to see them at school and try to clumsily avoid them now that we've graduated (I literally looped the hallways like 5 times to avoid them and their friend that I have some history with).

aughhhhhh man I need university to start ughhh. Not because of any "college experience" I do not give a rats ass about all that. I need to be reminded that the "alternative" people I spent all of high school chasing aren't all too special and I'll probably encounter a lot more of em in college that ACTUALLY want to talk to me (cope).

How about this… I did agree to watch Rammy screenshare the game. But I'll only do it if they message ME to hop on. If not, then I guess we'll go back to regularly scheduled programming. Aka playing video games and working on the site.

wait they think I'm gay. Oh god. I'm the gay male friend. Oh god. I was so desperate for some weird kid alt friends that I now actually play male yandere torture porn literally described as "for fetishists, by fetishists". Oh god. Yeah I am in TOO DEEP GET ME OUTTA HERE!!!!!

I don't find Rammy "weird" for liking this stuff. Well, not "bad weird" where I'll make fun of them or something. It's only that, hm, I think I may have gave them the idea that I'm actually just as into visual novels as they were rather than the vibe that I'm curious about the genre and I kinda wanted an excuse to talk to em. The closest I've gotten to playing a vn was CLASS OF 09!! AND I JUST WATCHED THAT ON YOUTUBE!! and Pico's Dating Sim, but that was because I was down bad. They may FLICK THEIR BEAN to this man like DAMN IT HOW AM I JUST REALIZING THIS??? C'mon man why didn't you tell me?? You probably reading all this and snickering.

ughhhh let's see how it goes.