Yep. The Rammy stuff is over. I thought it was really weird (it still is) to write all this bs about them without them knowing at all. It was crazy to me. Made me wonder if I had an effect on anyone to this extent. yeah who am I kidding nevermind.

I considered sending them this website as a final goodbye type beat. It's definitely creepy and off-putting, but I felt that they should know the whole story and my thoughts about it. Then I realized that it's kinda selfish to put all of this on them and expect them to read my dumbass logs. It goes against the whole "anyone who visits this website came here by their own free will and thus can't complain about what they see" thing I got going on. Well, actually you can complain about and critique anything on here but like ah you know what I mean.

Then some stupid drama happened and I had another realization. Rammy is kiiiinnnndddddd of a pushover. A pushover. god damn it A PUSHOVER

The type to complain about some creepy dude texting them and when they hear "just block them" they get all "oh but then I'll feel badddd :((((". They also seem to be a complete yes man who makes a bunch of false promises. Do I blame them for this, though? NOT AT ALL

If I had a bunch of random people always asking me to do stuff for them socially and guys who constantly message me about their problems who simultaneously wanna bang, I'd be fed up too. I'm not referring to myself, though (well maybe a lil bit…). Scott told me that when they were still dating, loads of people used to go up to Rammy and ask for favors and they'll agree to help them out. Then once the person left they'll ask Scott "wth am I supposed to do???". Red's the dude who rants to them about his problems until freaking midnight and Rammy is kinda forced to listen because what else can you do in that situation? Couple in the societal expectations of women to coddle guys and the taboo nature of the word "no"… yeah I am NOT trying to vilify Rammy for their behavior at all. Entirely justified, you go, uh, nonbinary term for queen? Monarch? Honestly I don't even know their gender identity…

I just don't want to be one of those people that Rammy feels like they have to entertain. I also just feel weird after the whole visual novel thing. Rammy doesn't care about any of this. I'm probably never gonna see them again. They don’t even like Scott and Red, so I have no connection to them anymore outside of our…mutual…interests… huh wait. Nah not doing it time to cut my losses. I still want to punch my wall over how everything turned out I don't think that feeling's ever going away mannnnn.

This was my final rope tying me to high school. Now that it's severed, well, I can finally start talking about the present.