…but honestly I like hearing myself talk so I kept messaging Rammy. We talked about animation and visual novels and dating sims, they ghosted me for like a month. They came back and apologized, I kinda ranted about Spacehey and talking to people online blah blah. I thought it was gonna be the same thing with everyone else; they humor me and reply to my messages but that's sorta it. Never really progressing from "the guy that always tries to talk to me eugh gross" in their eyes. And I solemnly accepted that. Not much you can do when you share no classes/lunches and have no reason to really speak with them outside of just "finding them cool".

UNTIL GAY PORN CHANGED EVERYTHING! I am being so for real with you right now.

I got this one online friend named LeShawna. She's Mexican but she has a black name it's weird she's weird but she's my type of weird so it's okay. We were just chilling on call doing that thing where we just doomscroll together on twitter (I LOVE MODERN FRIENDSHIP) until we come across gay porn of an…oddly familiar character. Where have I seen that grey, sphere-head ass tall dude with a black sleevless hoodie and freakishly long tongue before…?



IT WAS RAMMY'S PFP ON TIKTOK! The tiktok I only knew about because Red wouldn't stop sperging about it everytime Rammy posted (I'm weird but not cyber-stalker weird…). I learn he's the titular Your Boyfriend from the visual novel "Your Boyfriend". And I actually find the game pretty interesting, in an "edgy 2010s rpgmaker horror game" type way. So I spend like 1 dollar to get the demo and have LeShawna play it with me because I'm a wimp and she unsurprisingly likes the game. But since she's a HOPELESS ROMANTIC COOMER GOONER, she makes me act all nice to the literal stalker murderer and get the boring "good" ending. I'm gonna make you read this one of these days so here's a special SCREW YOU

It's whatever, though. SINCE I FINALLY HAD SOMETHING TO TALK TO RAMMY ABOUT THAT THEY ACTUALLY LIKE!!! Once you bring up that ADHD hyper fixation it's like all awkwardness evaporates and you can actually SPEAK with them unfiltered.

I ask if they know about the game (even though I already kinda knew the answer…) They, uh… didn't surprisingly. Huh

JUST KIDDING THEY DID AND THEY LOVE ITTT!!!!! We chat it up and they show me their merch shelf and everything is sunshine and rainbows. I mention that I only got to do the nice route (I'm staring at you) and then RAMMY OFFERS TO HOP ON CALL AND SHOW ME MORE OF THE GAME!!!! Hold up just for this I'm gonna play some music put this on in the background RIGHT NOW



We play the game and then we play this other game called the price of flesh and it kinda traumatized me but it was also sooo cool and I was really damn awkward but they were actually okay with it but then I had to go but it was great it was awesome like SQUEEEEEEE

Rammy was just a chill person to be around, man. I didn’t feel like I had to put on a performance so they wouldn't get bored or anything. I thought FOR SURE once the conversation died down a bit they would hit me with the "oh I have to go now…bum ass nigga" but nope. I'M THE ONE WHO ENDED UP HOPPING OFF!!! They told me about this one game called Mouthwashing and I actually REALLY LIKED IT. We followed each other on Instagram and start talking there. They actually know about EDDSWORLD?? And CLASS OF '09??? JACK STAUBER???? MCR??- actually I don't really care for MCR. And they DRAW AND ANIMATE?? It was like all the parts of myself I never really get to show to my other friends was all here!

But it's all so FRUSTRATING GRAHHHH WAHHH GRRRRRRR yiff AHHHHHH!!!

you can stop playing the music now btw